Wernham Hogg Forum

Pah. · Mon Apr 21, 2008 8:28 pm I feel so ill

I think i under cooked my dinner. I'm so sleepy, i just want to go out but nothing ever happens anymore. boo.

whats news? anyone know how billy's doing in aussie land?

nospam · Tue Apr 22, 2008 1:02 am

i keep going to manchester to visit a pretty girl. that news?

Dananiel · Tue Apr 22, 2008 3:07 am

i've made contact with this really nice girl, but our whole link is based on music for her film about rape. it's awkward, because i can't say "listen, this song reminded me of rape, oh and by the way, what you doing next week?"

bonce seems to think if anyone can form a relationship based on rape soundscapes, it's me. even if that is true, i don't want it to be.

BILLY V2.0 · Tue Apr 22, 2008 10:46 pm

i've been here for about 6 hours already and i'm bored and regret it. i'm literally the stupidest person ever. oh well i can't afford to come back so i might as well deal with it! going to hong kong in 2 months with england friends so that's something to look forward to, then i'll see what the situation is from there. it's 7am and i have't been to sleep for about 48 hours. ruddy jetlag. also i bought over my hard drive with 500gb of movies/tv shows on it and broke my brother's computer trying to put it in, so he's annoyed at me already.

Dananiel · Wed Apr 23, 2008 3:58 am

you know australia's the same every time you go right? i mean they haven't had a revolution, we would have heard

Pah. · Fri Apr 25, 2008 4:53 pm

when will you be in hong kong? i'm going to malaysia this summer andn we might go over for abit

BILLY V2.0 · Fri Apr 25, 2008 11:25 pm

not sure what the exact date but late june. william and mundu have got their tickets already and diana said she's coming too! i'm going to book mine once i've got a job. my brother might be coming too, if he can save up.

Pah. · Sat Apr 26, 2008 3:23 pm

where are you staying?

Dananiel · Mon Apr 28, 2008 9:46 pm

Dananiel wrote: i've made contact with this really nice girl, but our whole link is based on music for her film about rape. it's awkward, because i can't say "listen, this song reminded me of rape, oh and by the way, what you doing next week?"

bonce seems to think if anyone can form a relationship based on rape soundscapes, it's me. even if that is true, i don't want it to be.

fucking scrap this, i just acted like a social leper

Pah. · Mon Apr 28, 2008 11:54 pm

what happenenenend

Dananiel · Tue Apr 29, 2008 12:45 am

right so the last time we met we had a nice chat about her work and art in general and bla bla ANYWAY, i told her that i'd make her a mixtape (actually it's a cd but tape sounds better) of instrumental/atmospheric songs she could use. obviously wanting to impress her, i spent a few days thinking about this, i made the cd. then i hear nothing for ages, but turns out she's been busy editing, and so she says she'll come over tonight at 9 to pick it up

so she doesn't come at 9 and i start to get anxious for some reason. 9.20, the door knocks. now at this point remember that on our last meeting i played it pretty smooth, well, smooth for me. i was stringing thoughts and sentences together like wool. so i open the door, she's stood there and i'm not sure if she's coming in or just waiting for me to hand her the cd, being the negative twat i am, i assume the latter and say "oh, wait a second" and run upstairs, leaving her to let herself in.

i come downstairs, hand over the CD and start relaying all this information about the song choices but in a really incoherent fashion. at a couple of points i actually fucking stuttered, i never stutter. well, i do in a sort of woody allen neurotic kind of way but this was like medical condition stuttering, y'know. so we're just fucking stood in the hall making small talk and i didn't once offer her a drink, even though there was pauses of awkward silence, I DIDN'T ASK HER IF SHE WANTED A DRINK.

i just said "um listen if you like anything on there i could make you another mixtape or recommend something or you know" and she said yeah and said something about the cure but i don't know what the fuck she said because i was staring at her like a spastic. so between me turning my back on her at the door step and then not offering her a drink, and then saying she should call the best i can really hope for is that she'll be too confused to assess anything too much. she doesn't have my mobile number either, just our home phone and i never answer that and i doubt she'll leave a message.

on top of all that, i realised that she said "i'll listen to this in the car now" and that track 2 is a track called the boiler which is this spoken word ska track about this east end girl being raped and it's really in your face and explicit and i just think if she heard that in the dark in her car after our encounter, well...god knows.

to be honest, more than anything, i'm just angry at myself for acting so ridiculously. i don't claim to be mr fonzy i don't need the re memo on that, but at the same time i like to think i have enough social skills to get me through something like that without drowning under my own neurosis.

i mean she might not even like me, but now i get the feeling i won't ever know for sure. and it's a shame because she's pretty and i found her uncertainty about her work quite refreshing. we even bonded over stuck up art school pricks and then she asked if i'd like to go for a drink but never materialised.

i feel like i'm gonna vomit

BILLY V2.0 · Tue Apr 29, 2008 2:19 am

crikey :( just become a smoker. you give a girl a cigarette and become mates. it's easy!

ellen not sure yet! we're spending a week on 1 side of the island and a week on the other or something. i'm just going to see my friends really.

nospam · Tue Apr 29, 2008 4:35 am

aw dan, man, you'll be fine.. just keep at it.. the more time you spend you around her acting like a useless fool will actually be giving you the self confidence to eventually shake it off and become her studmuffin.. you just need to dust the cobwebs off.. easily done mate. x

nospam · Tue Apr 29, 2008 4:37 am

in my girl world. i think i have a girlfriend. i don't really know. she doesn't even live in the same city as me. we're sleeping together and i've gone up to visit her three times in the past three weeks and well, i've only known her a month so that's quite good going.. and we're now at a point where we're texting all day long and speaking on the phone everyday.. but she's about to move to london after her exams in two weeks and she's all a bit stressed out so what i don't want to do is add extra stress and try to get all heavy with her, but i'd like her to be.. so who knows.... must not sleep with my ex girlfriend anymore either. not good. my girl world is silly.

Dananiel · Tue Apr 29, 2008 1:24 pm

cheers guys. thing is billy, a drink is just as good as a cigarette, really, isn't it?